Day 6:
Today I woke up feeling so guilty. About 3 years ago, on the day after drinking I would pour out the rest of the vodka. Apparently I'm past that stage. I decide to hurry up and finish drinking it so I can get back to being sober. Crazy isn't it?
I had taken a naltrexone more than 1 hour before I started drinking yesterday. I don't feel a high when I take naltexone, but I do feel relaxed. It doesn't block the body's natural response to alcohol it blocks the high only. It works, but I don't think it works for me. I'm not looking for the high, I like how alcohol makes me relax. I like how it puts me to sleep. I know others talk about how they don't sleep well when drinking but that isn't the case with me. I do wake up about 5 hours after but I fall back asleep easily. I truly need to rethink naltrexone.
I drank today to ease the pain in my stomach from the vodka and soda. When my stomach would begin to feel bad, I would drink more to camoflauge the pain. I go to bed early because the booze puts me to sleep. I get absolutely nothing accomplished today. I sleep and watch tv all day. A wasted day.
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