Well, it has been a whole day for me, 1 whole day, yeah! Nearing 60, a woman, and a whole lot of shame. I am almost finished reading "The Sober Diaries". How refreshing. I have tried and tried to go to AA - the support system seems so great but I am so embarrassed because no one knows and like Sober Mommy, I am ashamed to announce to the world that I have this issue. So it has been easier to drink secretly than to announce to the world that I'm a drunk.
Yesterday, I drank all day, the holidays and all and honestly had a swollen red face by the end of the day. I looked absolutely horrible. I hated drinking, got nothing good out of it, just chasing the old relaxation high that I really don't get anymore.
I do like some of the advice AA gives and I plan to try to take this one moment at a time.
I have decided that this is a journey so I renamed my blog to reflect this. While I don't want to drink, if I do, it will be an event on my journey to becoming sober.
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