Day 5 am
I must have forgotten to blog yesterday. I had a really great day. I actually replied to Clare Pooley's blog. I felt so alive to actually talk to her. It doesn't matter if she never replies, I had the courage to reply to her.
Today feels tough. I am feeling the pull of the booze broad very hard. I actually thought of another name for her, "the Vodka Vixen." She is whispering in my ear that I can drink a couple of drinks and be just fine. She also insists that I have gotten so much accomplished over the past few days, I deserve a break. The Vodka Vixen keeps whispering that I can always cut down again, what's the problem?
My brain knows one thing but that Vodka Vixen is really sneaky. Please God, help me through today.
Day 5 pm: I actually hate to post this but I went out and bought some vodka and yes, I drank. I am so ashamed. I gave in the to Vodka Vixen. I am going to bed very disappointed in myself.
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